thanks phoenixI will try to speak to my pdoc,im just so ashamed of what i do(sh),im up now,its 23.57pm because im struggling with the urges to cut.I really need proffessional help before i go too far.I am fighting the urges,using all the distraction techniques i no,but its so hard,right now im hurting inside,my family really screwed me up and i cant forget or forgive them,never.I will fight this,i no i can do this,but if i fail,i fail.Im just pleased theres somewhere like this that i can talk,even if i dont feel i make sense.