I have too many important dates coming up to be in the hospital including a party (my friends are coming over for the Superbowl), a meeting with a casino that MIGHT buy my fine art cards, a speech that I get to do on autism on Feb 4th, and an assessment on Friday (my mom is a caregiver and this episode might get her more hours so I guess being nuts has its good side as well). I can't miss those dates. The main reason I am having an episode (even though it started all the way back in October of last year and deteriorated since then) is the med change and my mom is having surgery on her back. Stress always brings out the so called "psychotic" symptoms. Stress makes everything worse in me, even my physical problems are worse (my fibromyalgia for example). I think I am just plain normal! Not nuts!