I've always felt depressed...but I never thought it was because of low self-esteem. A lot of the time I protect myself from others by pretending to be confident and working really hard. I took a sel-esteem quiz and i said now to every single point which proves I have no confidence in myself. I have no clue what I want to do with my life...I'm constantly afraid that no one will love me for me. I just want a friend...I had lots of family problems....I've never had a real friend...my whole life i've been on my own...i never say what's really on my mind. I do this subconsciously without realising it. I've become this other person who i really am not. I pretend to be something than what I really feel because I'm scared of being told I'm not good enough or that I suck....I don't really know what caused my self-esteem issues.. I was always picked on in elementary school...it made it hard for me to trust people after that...I just moved myself away from people and never wanted a friend. I just had aquaintances and I still do. I'm not close to my parents...I'm not close to anyone...I don't want anyone to find out that I'm not perfect...I have no social skills...i suck at socialising...I just wish I could fix me...I wish I could be happy...all i've known is pain...no one has supported me...or been there for me...people have hurt me tremendously and I'm sick of it