I'm really into my dreams. I can remember them often and in detail. I find them creative and often clever and it makes me smile sometimes to see how the unconscious is framing and picturing things. I see dreams as a "message" from my unconscious to my conscious self. If I don't understand them or forget them, I know that if the message is important, my unconscious will try again to get through to me. I find dreams most useful as a way to know what is going on in my unconscious. Sometimes it precedes by quite a bit those issues becoming manifest in my conscious life. I like to try to bring my conscious into sync with my unconscious.

I had a dream within the last year that was very significant for me and I believe has lead to lasting changes in my life and feeling and thinking and way of being. It was huge. I shared it in therapy with T and something that happened right in his office then played into it. T called it a life-changing experience, and I remember loving that he recognized its significance.

Although T was not in that dream, I have had quite a few dreams that he was part of. Sometimes he is a significant figure and sometimes he is just there, in the background. I take that to mean I have internalized him. I don't always tell him my dreams, but I like when I do and we have time for it. T uses the Gestalt dreamwork approach to help me understand my dreams. I brought T a dream the second time I saw him. And one about him at my 4th session or so. I remember, that one lead to a revelation about what I was looking for in therapy from him. That insight came after we were done with the dreamwork at the end of the session. Great moments.

I am taking some psychoactive drugs right now and I find I don't dream as much with them. That makes me sad, but I'm not ready to give them up yet, even for the sake of dreams.