I am sooo afraid of death. The closest person to me that has passed away is my little brother's friend. It's been over 6 months and I still cry when I hear the song that they played at his funeral. I wasn't close to him.. we barely talked much.
It scares me. I am still sad about him.. I can't imagine how I'm gonna feel or deal with the death of a close family member.
I am so scared that my parents will die... you have no idea.
And it sucks right now because I had to move 2,000 miles away from them. And they're gonna have to leave the country for good within the next 6 months.. and i can't just pick up and go. im married now. I can't do that, I'm not a child anymore.
What am I going to do? I'm freaking out with them being states away, but what am I going to do when they are a country away?

I feel like I'm going to die when they leave, let alone when one of my family members dies. I don't think I'll be able to handle it. I get hysterical sometimes just think about old times or of one of them dying.. It kills me inside.
I don't know if i'll be able to handle it.

What will happen to me? Can you die of sadness? Because I doubt that I'll survive their deaths..

I know what you're thinking.. why worry about it if it's not happening?

But my parents are both very sick all the time. plus, they can't really afford healthcare. I feel like they need me.. but my husband needs me too.

What to do?

I feel like I am going to die of sadness when the day comes..