so i haven't dissociated but i did talk to pdoc about crawling under his table the next time things got particularly rough. he's cleared the space out now (there were files under there ) and so now i'm free to crawl anywhere i want.

re: foetal position - yeah, i'm a big fan of it. i don't think it's weird/abnormal/necessarily telling of anything. it's just something we do to give ourselves comfort/possibly protect ourselves.