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jist in a really bad place right now. memories of the past keep racing around my head and they wont shut up. want to si and make myself numb to life memories and everything but others would be mad. dont want them mad but just cant sleep. its 1:24am and took my meds but still cant sleep. my head just wont shut up. such awful mems of the past of horrid things we did to others. no way to appologize and no way to explain. just want to jump off a bridge. wanting to si and be numb. wanting to sleep. wanting it all to go away. instead im jist stuck. floating in a cold world that dont understand what a horrible person we are. wanting despreatly to be in control of my mind. but instead jist feeling lost.
jess of the clan
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Life is like a box of chocolates and I always get stuck with the nuts.  |