I had a good session yesterday - sorted out a lot of things - thought my T was trying to tell me subtly that T couldnt help me and that my T was going to say "hit the road " so discussed that and its not so (also told T she had to be waaaaay less subtle if she was sending me a message and to just say it)- made some progress - sorted out a direction and got my feet unstuck - felt good yesterday afternoon after the exhaustion lifted (my normal reaction to a session where we discuss difficult things for me) Slept like a log - Brilliant !

today... not so good does this happen to you -? does it stop?

Some really good things came out of yesterday - I didnt have bad thoughts for the WHOLE afternoon! so thats good - I keep reminding myself that - I just wonder why I cant keep it going?