do u have a higher power in your life? if u do, i'd suggest praying about it. ask for this fear to be lifted from you cause it's too heavy a burden for you to bear. i am sure others will have more helpful thoughts but this is what i do when it's something beyond my control. i hope you will find some peace. 
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Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark, in the hopeless swamps of the approximate, the not-quite, the not-yet, the not-at-all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish, in lonely frustration for the life you deserved, but have never been able to reach. Check your road and the nature of your battle.
The world you desired can be won. It exists, it is real, it is possible, it is yours..~Ayn Rand
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