I always sit in the same position while seeing my T. I take off my shoes and then I curl up in a ball in her chair with my stuffed animal. My T and I have an unspoken agreement that we don't start talking until I'm settled. I've taken my stuffed animal to therapy since I first started going but only curled up in a ball with my latest T. I have never done this with my Pdoc.

I know that I also don't like looking my T or Pdoc in the eye when I am talking about something stressful or emotional. I feel like it provides some distance. If I looked at them I would feel too vulnerable. I'm not one to look people in the eye when I am talking to them either. I know that they both notice but don't mention it. I do know they notice when I am further away than usual even if I am not looking at them usually.

I know that my stuffed animal (that I've had since I was five) makes me feel safer when I am in session. If for some reason I am not able to bring him (or I am too distracted and forget) I stay on very superficial topics. Though none of my Pdocs have met my stuffed animal. Only my T.