Exactly until I started doing this I didn't realize how much distorting I tend to do. I think it was Oprah who said something like, 'we are the causes of our own effects.' I do not believe this statement is always true. But, when it come to my anxiety about therapy and other interpersonal interactions, I am definitely play a leading role in creating it.

The really weird thing about the mental tape created is that I can literally play that tape and recall at lot of really fine details even from sessions over a year ago. But then there seems to be whole segments of my past that I can't recall at all. It makes you wonder if the information is there somewhere deep in the brain. Then again maybe the mental details of therapy are there because we are so tuned in and on heightened alert.