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Originally Posted by Lbien6
What do people think about this?
I feel like I need therapy, need to see my therapist. I look forward to our appointments, even when I know they are going to be difficult. I get nervous and irritable if I'm late and I hate it when the hour ends, even if it’s a rough session.
But when I say need I fear I might mean it in a desperate way. Like a drug addict needs their fix. And I desperately don't want to stop therapy.
At the same time, I wonder if it makes any difference. I wonder if it helps. I wonder if I just forced myself, I could stop going and actually live to see other days.
I've been in therapy almost non-stop for 25 years. Maybe, for me, it's really not all that helpful anymore? OR maybe it is very helpful.
Maybe for me it’s a crutch. He is my only real live person that I talk to. I have no friends inrl.
And I am saying this for me. I think people, in general, who have mental illnesses or who have some life issues should be in therapy. These are just my personal doubts and hang ups about me, no one else.
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Lbien6
You haven't seen the SAME therapist for 25 years. That's a lack of continuity in treatment and discontinuity can have negative effects.
You should also consider that our knowledge of psychology was really not up to snuff; we are STILL in the dark ages, but making headway.
Why put blame on yourself for being "dependent" or what have you?
Remember... VARIABLE skill amongst providers from our pm? Same thing.
I don't believe in "Mental Illness". It is a myth. There are disordered thought processes (mental disorders).
Perhaps in your case the safety and validation and the help you receive from the good therapists you have had that helped you deal with a chronic problem is the reason it's not dependency. If you have chronic problems, then you should stay as long as is necessary for you to get well enough that you can reduce/eliminate the therapist (or Pdoc).
We all have different challenges in life. I know people pretend to be perfect specimans, but the reality is that no one is perfect, biologically or otherwise. The quantity of visits to a therapist or doctor has nothing to do with getting "well" or not.
Therapy doesn't seem to be a crutch with you from our conversations we've had in PM. The "no friends" issue can be dealt with, and is not related to therapy.
Hang in there.
