You're learning and growing and I suspect you will be able to keep it going for longer periods as you continue working on these things. It has worked that way for me. When I started feeling like you, the exhaustion lifting and a peacefulness settling in, it didn't always last through the end of the drive home from therapy. lol Now, it can last several days and so I think that's progress.

It is exhausting to be looking for clues and unspoken messages. As you are seeing it's so relieving to talk instead and find out what is going on, which is often not what our fears and insecurities are telling us. Learning to not look for signs/messages/clues *and* being able to test my thoughts about what is going on by talking directly about it is something I keep trying to learn in therapy So, I guess we keep practicing and I trust those good-feeling times will keep lasting longer and longer