my T asked me if I had bee testing her? - I realised I had - I had been telling her things about myself, my past, and how I was feeling and waiting for her to go and run screaming from the room LOL

I think I was disclosing a little at a time without thinking about it - I mean if I sound crazy to me I must sound even more crazy to her she told me nothing I had said had made her think worse of me - it was like I had been holding my breath for all the previous sessions - and now I could let it out and breathe. you're right Echoes - its must easier if you ask - and maybe I have finally progressed to a stage where I can.... maybe

I hope the feeling calm times get longer and longer for all of us