Welcome!! Keep visiting the forums. People hear are nice and have a lot in common with you. I think OCD and Schizophrenia & Psychosis would be good forums for you to visit first. I am not diagnosing you, but I think the people who post there might have more in common with you, from what you wrote about yourself.

I you mentioned that in doing research you could see that you have symptoms of different mental illnesses.

This could be for more than one reason.

1. It is possible for one person to have more than one diagnosis--more than one mental illness.
I have been diagnosed with 3. I have been diagnosed OCD, schizoaffective, and PTSD
2. It is very hard to self-diagnose. Especially if you are just using information from books or online sites. You really need a professional to help you with figuring this stuff out.

Most doctors are in their profession to help ease pain and save lives. They are not interested in anything but improving your life.
Medicine can help ease pain and help you feel safe around other people so you can make friends.

The mental illnesses that I have are what tell me that doctors are only out to get you and want to control your mind by giving you drugs. It is very hard not to listen to that. But, I have learned that my mental illnesses usually lie to me and I try really hard not to listen when they tell me these things.
I also can't touch things. I also have fears that are not based on anything real.
But, I have doctors that I see and that I trust and who help me. They don't try to control me. They try to ease my pain and are nice to me.

I hope you can think about and consider my experience with doctors.
Good luck. Keep posting. Private Message me anytime.