Septembermorn's post from the Pandor'a Aquarium site kind of led me back to this site. I had visited it a year ago...but now I am back again.

My therapy is going well at the moment. My anxiety has lowered considerably. And I'm talking more comfortably "at the moment." We've been dealing with my response and avoidance to touch, but I'm not sure if my T really gets what is causing it... Or maybe she gets it; but she is just trying to get me to raise it or acknowledge it. I don't know...just wish if the latter is true she'd stop playing the "Well what do you think this means game?" I'm probably not making sense.

Anyway, I think I need to talk about this issue but for the past 3 months... I just cannot seem to raise it. Thought someone else here might recognize a few of these, be at a place where you are trying to get yourself to believe the author, and might like to know you're not alone.

http://pandys.org/forums/index.php?showtopic=87708

I hope the reason I am putting this out there is a positive one. I've been feeling really good lately and not sure if I should be rocking the boat. I hope its because I need to, in order to deal with this. Then again it could be my version of psychological sexual self-injury stirring up trouble again because I am feeling OK and "I can't handle being OK". ---self doubt is great isn't it!