Ashamed, There is only the thought that physical pain will help you not to repeat your behavior. Hurting yourself, making yourself feel pain, is not the answer. Use your words. You came here because you know that this behavior is not the solution. Please try to explain why you feel so guilty. I don't know you and you don't know me. I am someone you can share with and never see. Others on here are also here to give advice and help. What is eating at you so deeply?