ty Kaika

I am..trying to be calm, and work through this, I keep having fitful sleeps, and my dreams haunt me....

I am uncertain wether or not to bring this up with T next thursday, I feel sick and worn down. The memory goes from murky to clear and fades in and out..

I feel sick, and used, and just, all nasty, I want to scream.......

What am I to do with this new information? My brain can't even process it....