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Originally Posted by silver_moon
It's a lot of things
I'm ashamed I've allowed myself to be hurt throughout my life
I'm ashamed I've let things get so bad
I'm ashamed that I don't eat anymore
I'm ashamed that today I've taken painkillers, drank alcohol,, been sick because I can't deal with the problems... it's the middle of the afternoon... I didn't want to drink, but it was there and I couldn't stop myself, I poured a glass and now I've drank everything I had... I shouldn't have done!!
I'm ashamed of who I am personally... that nobody want's to know me... and why should they?
I just... I need some release... i need to let it out...
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I sure wish I could be there to give you a hug and a shoulder. I am still with you here though. I do want to know you. I am wondering, are you trying to kill yourself? I know this isn't a question you want to hear, but you haven't eaten, have taken pain killers, and been drinking. That is a very deadly combination honey, and you know it as well as I do. I am very concerned for you. Please keep posting. Tell me about yourself. What are you trying to get away from? When we do these things, it is a way of running away from something or someone. What are you running from? -Angie