I am sorry you are so afraid. If you can make yourself talk it out, face the fear, and get to a point where you can share this with someone else close by who can help you, a lot of the fear will go in time. You said you need to get out of the house. I also read in another post that you have school and other classmates. You are also in a club. Somehow you have managed at times to be out there and involved in life. What gave you that ability at those times? If you teach, which is what I think I am picking up from here, then you really do need to look for some very strong help, because if you enjoy teaching then you don't want to lose your licensure. I am desparately trying to help but I still don't know much about you. I would like to know more and am here for as long as you need. -- Angie