Thanks for understanding.At times i just want to crawl under a rock and die.FerretGuy you are right people do not see disability unless it is totally visable.Some people in my family think depression is an excuse to be lazy.But they do not live with me or now how my mind works.They do not know how bad i feel.They do not know before i got help.For years i had trouble sleeping.Before i got help I'd get like 2 hours a sleep at night.That was not good for my health etc.Even had more seziures because of the lack of sleep.I get out as much as i can.But during the winter.I only get out once a week or so.I have one hobby i love.Which is baseball.So that keeps me busy and happy during spring and summer.Do not play baseball.Just a huge fan of it.I am still having issues with depression.But now i always get a good night sleep.I just wish the depression and Epilepsy would go away.When i get upset.I can stay upset at times for days.Then think negative for days.Plus i let people upset me to easily.I just feel unloved and unaccepted etc.