ok well that's all you have to do is believe...even if it's just a little with a lot of "ifs" involved. heres' why i say that:
one night in the psych ward i was terrified of being sent home. why? because i had decided this would be my last attempt at getting well. i was so mentally exhausted. so i was panicking cause i sensed that they thought i was ok but i wasn't. i didn't have any hope anymore. i got down on my knees and did a weird prayer...see i sort of believed, but i wasn't really sure there would be any sort of intervention. so i said, if you are there, if you have the power, etc. if, if, if, then i asked for help, for a miracle. i went to bed and the next morning i had a tiny smidgen of hope that i could really get better and have a life unencumbered by the chains i had felt all my liife. well i hadn't had that like forever so i knew something/some higher poiwer had intervened. i knew, jme, that my prayer had been heard. i was told later that it is in God's time, not mine, but i guess he realized how desperate i was, so i got answered overnight!
please understand this is what happened to me. these are my beliefs today..that a higher power can intervene in our lives. that for me, i was worthy of having a prayer answered. i promised myself i would never forget this experience. if i ever doubted in the future i had this to pull me back into good thinking. since that time i have never felt alone..not lonely...alone. i know my higher power is always with me.
i sincerely hope this experience i have shared with you can offer you hope too.