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Originally Posted by Taonuviel
i have to get the most out of this as i can in as little time as possible, since i have so little available. what's supposed to work, anyway? what more is there to do than try to work on whatever's going on?
my thinking is foggy sometimes, but that's not what i'm talking about. my thoughts can be clear, make total sense to me but i cannot express them verbally.
i think the problem is something physically not working/present in my brain, some kind of connection between thought processing and verbalization, and another missing connection in interpreting interpersonal conduct/non-verbal messages and conversation dynamics. some of this might be learned, but i really think some of it is just missing. i watch and try enough in these areas to make some improvement but there isn't any, it's frustrating and makes no sense.
i'm diagnosed with major depression and bpd.
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I would suggest neuropsychological testing to rule out other cognitive disorders, like a learning disorder, expressive disorder, ADHD, etc. Maybe your T does not think this is necessary. If things are as you say they are, then it is possible you are misinterpreting your T as well.
Have you told your T exactly what you told us here?
It's hard to believe a T would literally not know what to do, don't you think?
If you have a problem with socializing and/or communicating because you can't understand/read another person's verbal cues and body language, then you have to learn how to do so. Ideally, your T would be the one to help you with this. He would first have to identify what your problem areas are.
Problems with self expression (not comprehension per se) are common when you are dealing with complex and deeply disturbing emotions. I think you are being to difficult with yourself and expecting things to change very quickly without really identifying the problems. Problems take understanding in order to solve them.
Please be specific---what is your exact concern? That no one understands your pain, your emotions, etc., OR that no one understands the things you say because you are indirect or otherwise unclear toward them? Do you speak in generalities all the time versus specifically identifying your problem areas? You must define the problem in order to fix it.
I also think it is helpful to be proactive about it, lest you get into the victim mode and sabotage yourself (I'm not saying you are doing that here, just an FYI so that you don't head that way).
Why does your appointments with your T end in three months?