i'll always feel this bad. always will until i'm over
why do i bother. why do i bother when i am damned to relive this hell over and over like some sadistic punishment
i need it to be over so they'll all go away
then it won't hurt anymore
because i can't do this. i can't. i really can't. it won't matter to people in the long run. it never matters. it's just me
can't stand this won't go away unless i make it go away by going away