(((((((((((((((((((hangingon)))))))))))))))))))))))

My dad died almost 5 years ago, and I haven't been able to say anything negative about him in T yet....although obviously, he played into the family dynamics that I grew up in that sent me to therapy in the first place (this sentence is the most I've ever said about that, actually!). It's really hard.

Just take it at a pace you can handle. It sounds like your T is very gentle and understanding about it, and that is so important and good. Be gentle and understanding with YOURSELF. There is no hurry.