kinda know what you mean,
have similar thing it started that way
sometimes kid. Call her the kid. She just wants to play
sometimes she's really scared though... as I started to feel like that more and had to actually face things, scary for something that can't understand
not sure hwat it is but ... you'r enot alone I'll try reply later I"m a bit outta it right now myself but, just wanted you to know
similar thing here... theres kinda a page on it in my blog, but I 'll tell you about how it started... that's probably more like what you're feeling i think... sorry not now

And welcome to pc