this is the negative side of my abstract thinking. i appreciate my intelligence and such... it just gets me into a lot of trouble too... i think too much...

i'll be practicing for interviews.

talking with my t is pretty safe. talking with peers is not. i don't know. maybe it's anxiety, maybe it's lack of skills, maybe it's lack of confidence, maybe it's lack of trust, maybe it's something intrinsic to my brain... i've tried to work on all those that can be dealt with, and not gotten anywhere... and those things don't feel like the thing that's holding me back...