I'm sending you a personal message to expand on this because some of it very sensitive stuff.
I have/have had the same problems to major degrees.
Sunrise is right, one definition of intelligence in fact is measured by one's capacity for abstract thought.
On the general issue of communication, one thing you'll end up benefitting from therapy is that your ability to communicate your thoughts and feelings will increase greatly. That's what you do in therapy--intense fumbling around to understand your thoughts and feelings and the more fumbling to express them so that another person understands them. I discovered after years of therapy that people came to think of me as extremely able to communicate on an intimate level about things, whereas previously that wasn't the case. It really helps to be able to do so in relationships; girlfriends think I'm really good at it whereas no one would’ve said the same thing years earlier.
Sticking with therapy will only help you become a better communicator.
My T said of me that I used to have confused thinking of some sorts but got past that. She was right.
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