When I read you post, I feel that I have the same exact issue as you have. You're not alone on this one. I remember in elementary school I was bullied...and i really had no idea why people wanted to pick on me so much. I sat beside the smart people and they continuously laughed at me because I wouldn't understand things in class right away. I usually did poorly in math. No one wanted to sit beside me on the bus when we went on fieldtrips...I hated when the teacher asked us to get into groups. My mom had my hair cut really short when i was young...and the boys would make fun of me for looking like a guy. The girls disliked me as well. They thought I was a nerd and didn't want to sit near me. I didn't tell my parents about this because I thought they would laugh at me as well...It was so embarrassing for me. I gave up on having friends and I didn't really see the po9int if they would treat me like this. I had one group of friends...but my parents disliked everything about them...and I'm not really sure why. I didn't become close with them. I just kind of got lost...my parents didn't want me to join a social group and I don't really know why. To this day I've been on my own...my bf is my only friend. For me...friendship should be about accepting the other person for who they are and vice versa...I don't really want to be friends with peopld who are backstabbing...and use me and are only out for themselves...Now I just don't care what people think...i sit in the library by myself and do school work...I do what I want...and if someone likes me for me...then we are good to go and I would gladly be their friend in return. i dont' deserve to be walked all over...and I would not walk all over someone. I respect myself...and if others don't want to respect me that is their problem...because they are missing out...be happy with who you are...and I know it gets lonely at times...but you have excellent qualities and you need to recognise those...so others can learn to appreciate you...and if they don't...move on until someone does. GOod luck...PM me anytimes