you said...my answer to that question isabsolutely not!!! everyone needs validation. it means a lot especially when it comes from a family member, a close friend, a bf. i understand what you are saying and i think you said it well. i am truly sorry you feel so badly. i'm truly sorry you are not being heard. but, i heard you, and others here will too. we care. i care.
i hope that you won't feel this way too long. you deserve to feel worthy of being heard. perhaps the ppl you are talking to don't have the understanding or the human capacity to deal with it. that doesn't help that they are like that, i know. keep posting and get all those horrible things out in the open. it will lessen the intensity of your frustration. try not to give these ppl "rent space in your head". it's not worth it. try to do something to get them out of your mind if you can. your mind is tired. i know. i've felt the same way in the past.