um... i went looking around again, and found a list of professionals with as experience around here, and found a psychiatric hospital dr on there who i've seen before, and got this strange little flash of a memory that i'm not sure whether it happened (i hate ect memory loss), of some incident of him mentioning as and my mom getting upset upon hearing of his suggestion that i might have a form of autism. but it's all so vague, i'm really not sure whether it happened.

anyway, i can't find any programs for adults, just lots for kids.

i actually did mention it to my t, who asked me why i thought so and said he's worked with students with as, but didn't say anything more about it. i thought he might have been trying to watch for signs in the rest of the session, but i don't know. this was a month ago and it hasn't come up again, but i wonder whether he forgot about it, because he seemed to forget/mix-up stuff the first few times i saw him, though i think he's not forgetting much anymore, maybe just had to see me a few times.

and i feel like there's not much more i can observe or learn... i've been trying to pick up on this stuff for the last decade and gotten nowhere on it.