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dear genn,
houses like the second one just come without being asked for by any adult. i came to the house where i raised my physical children with an internal house filled with others i did not even recognize or know at first. the two houses of children have competed for my time, attention, love and sanity.
i have tried to run away from the internal house and children, destroy the house and abandon the children and i have often neglected this house and the kids inside of it - all to our own pain and sadness and anger.
it has taken a long time to accept and own the inside HOME where my alters took the overflow of my nightmares, abuse, neglect and wounds. 90% of the time now i live in this house and do better now in caring for these children of my heart and my mind and my soul.
it is still not easy to live here, apparently i am a stubborn and unwilling homeowner and extended parent. it is always easier for me to nurture the children of my marriage than the children of my own private holocaust.
still hoping for change and renewal,
leslie and her pixies
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