Both have both searched me out everytime we move and we move alot. I keep running hoping they won't find me and that I can finally stop running. But it never happens. I'm tired of not dealing with all this. I've hid it for so long that I think its manifested into flashbacks. They scare me, the voices and paranoina are way easier. At least with them I know where I am. But I keep slipping back to an awful place where all this started and have a hard time getting back each time.