Thanks De,

nice idea, but no. i can't. like all the men i ever knew he thinks sex IS a cuddle.

to a survivor like me it is NOT.

i am ****ing desperate tonight and finally mad enough to show the bad mad *****y side of me. i am a ****ing ***** and mad as hell. its cuss or cut and i decided bad manners is easier to fix than my arteries.

better apologise than bleed out.

i know you are trying but its band aides on cancer.