Hi Pixies... just a thought - something for you to consider, anyway - but is it possible some kind of pro****ing has been set off? Just thought it when putting your last few posts together with this one in which you say you've missed T three times but don't even know why. And then there's all this down real hard on yourself and spiralling kind of stuff. Hopelessness etc.

Maybe it might be worth asking inside to see if anyone knows anything??

Take gentle care of you all, especially the littles. Give em stuff they like to help them feel safe and loved ok?