I am alive, thanks for the loving replies Angela, Pat, Ozzie, cateye and silver queeen. A day to be reconed with for a long time I am afraid. I cut, mostly scratched and surprisingly little. I made it through for the next bombshell. I spoke with my son about his behavior toward me and told him it hurt my feelings. I am so pooped. I am questioning my worth at my job but carry on I shall.