(((((silver_queen)))))
Last year i called every T in my area that was on the ISSD list that they sent me and only one could see me. i saw him for four weeks straight, then my littles had to say good-bye to T1 and we mentioned it to T2. One day i came home from work and there was a letter from him saying that he'd never see me again or have anything to do with me. He sent copies to T1 and my Dr. i cried for days- i didn't know that could happen, he could have told me in person, we were devastated. i was so upset that i sent the letter BACK to him with my thoughts - telling me how much he hurt me. i know that he just used the opportunity to fire me as a patient because i'm too messed up. It felt so bad to be abandoned by that T.

Everything is so so complicated because of having parts all split up on every issue and everything.
This is what having this disorder is for me. My life is a terrible mess and no one can help me. It's so frustrating for me and everyone else that tries.
Therapy is a nightmare but we're too messed up to not go. It's there that i find out what i'm doing- what parts are doing. Does anyone else have this experience?
i just need to know. Did anyone else get better after being this bad?
kerria