Yes...thanks - I'm really not sposta be drinking at all (medical diet).
yeah - that whole realization thing was quite a doozie. And certainly not something I could "hear" a few years back. It is amazing to observe the mind as it struggles with this; the ptsd really kicked into high gear. Today I am reeaaalllly zoning. Found myself staring at my bathroom sink for near 10 minutes. It is kind of turning my world upsidedown - and yet, it is *healing* to be able to distinguish reality from programming; the human perp from the mask of darkness and human-created "evil". But I guess I will just have to let my mind go on it's own timeline to get through -and trust it will.
thanks, kiya
and safe hugs if you want them (((melissa)))