and i just remembered, too, that a lot is happening in dreams and in my not-so-conscious mind. some of it i am aware of, and even though i am not comfortable with it, i can't seem to stop it, so i am letting the mind have free-reign as it were... very new territory for me. Am so glad the forum is here so I can keep in contact with everyone, be reminded that ppl care, and have my "feet tethered' to at least one part of reality!