Carmelina, can you get a piece of paper and write down everything that comes into your head - I find this helps me find out why I want to SI.
Are you seeing a T? they can help with this - also read through the stickys at the top of the page they have lots of ideas to do when you want to SI -
Holding ice in your hand can help - drawing lines on youself where you would cut can help - taking a long shower - if you have a T imagine what they would say to you now - there are safer ways to cope - you just have to find the one that works for you now.
Please be safe - P7
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts 
its how many times you get back up! 
(Thanks to fenrir for my Picture 
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When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown,
Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly.
by Patrick Overton, author and poet