Hi Happy1, I am also a teenager and am having the same troubles. When a therapist has anyone sign a contract, I think that everyone then has the urge to hurt even more. I think that the best thing that you can do in that situation would be to include a positive reinforcement if you are able to stay safe. Ex: Session time is used in a different direction, like you can talk about your current event issue or most troublesome thing that causes you to self-harm. PM me anytime. I know exactly how you feel. Why don't you try safety conracting with yourself with a formal set up or crisis plan. Try my simple fill out paper that I use for myself. See if this is effective or bring it to your therapist to create a more flexible contract. (It's a word document for Microsoft, jsut copy and paste it to Microsoft)
I Crisis Triggers
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II De-Escalation Techniques
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III Supports Used
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IV What I did/Plan of action
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V Contract
I agree to not hurt myself in anyway and to practice being safe through calming strategies that we have talked through with therapy and talking to my parent(s) or an emergency number. Kids Helpline: 1-877-549-1400, Crisis Services: 834-3131, thoughts of suicide: 1-800-SUICIDE,
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Please be careful, you are a gift in life, not a mistake. Try to make it what you want it to be