Again, thank you all for your advice and your encouragement. I, as I said, am more than willing to do what it takes to make this work, and as we talk, and as each day passes, with hope and prayer, things are getting better. My irrational mind still tells me things, no I don't hear voices, but you've read my fears. I still break down at times, and did again last night, but I suppose that's part of the healing process.

@ multipixie9 - I understand what you're saying, and have been thinking on this, I see two views imho, because she is a great source of my happiness, and I have literally built my world around her. She's in the armed forces, I go where she goes, without question, without doubt. I don't get a career atm, I stay at home with my son, take my daughter back and forth from school, clean house, cook, do laundry...Mr Mom, that's me. But it's more than that. She's everything to me. I DO get that maybe if I kept on telling her this it would become a problem. I have resigned myself to now giving her the space. I have said my piece to her enough, and I don't want to push anymore, because I don't want to push her away. Thank you for your letting me know that this is what could happen if I kept it up. I disagree that I don't know what love is though. I know God's love, I know unconditional love, and this is what I have for her...yet I was putting conditons upon her, because of my fears and anxieties. This will stop, but please understand that putting your loved one first (second only to God, for me), is how I feel it should be, how it is.

With every passing day, I just have to trust in the Lord and His wisdom that all will be as He plans, and that His plan is for us to stay together, and, with each passing day it has only gotten better. Scared as I am, that at any given moment she'll turn and say nope, this isn't working, I will work at space and time for her. I hope that is what will help us work through this and eventually get back to where we once were, no matter how long it takes.