You take it second by second then hour by hour then day by day - you have to learn other ways to cope before you can let it go - or push it to the back of your mind - it sounds like you have only recently found help and so it wil take time - there is hope - it can be like an addiction - but addictions can be beaten - or at least subdued and put away -

second by second, hour by hour, day by day, there is hope and it can build up and support you - I hope you find somthing wthat works for you P7