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kiya,
acceptance is crucial to restoration, but yes it is just one of the steps we must take to get to a point of resolution.
i know 6 years sounds long (not as long as 14...sigh) but, you i am guessing and hoping are starting this younger than i did and that my dear gives you a distinct advantage over me (not that we really are competing) a young person, willing to do the work has so much less "life baggage" than a woman in her early 40's has.
but, kiya, this weekend in the frightening depth and violence of my feelings i finally got some more clear idea of what these monsters did to me. i am not a wimp. what was done to me was deliberate, programmed cruelty and deviant horrors and even sheer violence done to innocent victims (of whom i was one) right in front of me.
ALL THAT TO SAY, I MUST STOP BEING ANGRY WITH MYSELF OVER MY CONDITION - SUCH MANGLED WOUNDS DO NOT HEAL FAST AND PAINLESSLY. BUT THEY DO HEAL.
respecting your struggle, leslie and her pixies
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  HEALING HAPPENS
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