Thanks for the pure love Pat, wendy and Kathy. It helps more then words can say. I want to be perfect, anyone have a perfect pill? I miss my Jane as she would hold me and love me and let me know that no matter what I will survive. I want to be good at my job and I am not always good. Please bare with me. I am a hurting little pup right now. Tonight is hubbie's first show and I was out buying a car for the daughter who ruined hers. Tomorrow I shall attempt it. Hubby feels awful in his body and I am sad and worried about his anxiety level. Thanks for being my friends, it means the world.