Sounds as if your heart and your head are telling you two, very separate things..why, if you cannot trust Chris, cannot you trust ANYONE? There are good people in this world, I have found, many good and wonderful people, took me a while, yet I have found some good hearts and souls. It is wonderful you opened up..can you let a few others know the real you, too? I think the real you is a beautiful one! Then you can ask the few others their opinion of Chris, if _he is even good enough for _you, or someone else you open up to will also love you but in a non care taker way or mode........