I am exhusted. It feels like I'm on red alert all the time. I just left my T's office where he increased my meds to double a day. Hopefully that will help me relax a little. I hope it works a little but I'm also scared to be too relaxed. The last meds they put me on made me lose myself. I don't remember the whole year. It increased terrible actions and drove my husband into this state of guarded emotions. He is still there but slowly coming back. Maybe so am I. Thank you all for your support, I really truly appreciate it. I feel extremely scared all the time to talk to anyone scared what will come out of my mouth. Thanks again