Leslie and Pixies, can you accept yourself and where you are at a little more? Working with yourself is easier than working against yourself (you probably know more about that then I will ever know actually). I hear you being upset with yourself. Please be kind to yourself . You can only move forward from where you are at not from where you think you should be. You just finished up being by yourself for 10 days, you have had a toothache (and anticipating the dentist) and now you are thinking about your surgeries............