Thread: Bah! Humbug!!
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Old Feb 02, 2009, 04:25 PM
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Originally Posted by sittingatwatersedge View Post
but apparently the price I am going to have to pay for giving in and calling her to talk 20 minutes between sessions is having her make it very clear what she expects us to talk about the next time we get together.
So are you saying here that your T is not one to push; but she made it very clear that if you put something on the table, she expects that you make some effort during the next session to talk about it?

If so, I can relate to this situation. I was having A LOT of difficulty communicating LIVE with my T. At one point I was totally frustrated, wrote her a letter that disclosed a lot of "stuff", sealed it in an inside envelop mailed it to her with a cover letter. In the cover letter I stated the nature of the content of the inside letter. I also explicitly and direct stated..."If you open the inner envelope, I DO NOT want to see this letter or listen to you read from it during my next session."

The only reason I was able to actually attend the next session was because I thought my T would respect my wishes, at least in the short-term. This was NOT the case. As soon as I sat on the ugly couch, T whipped out that inner letter and began to read from it. I could NOT believe it! I was shocked, embarrassed, angry, everything at once. I don't even remember the rest of the session. I think I just sat there staring at the floor in shock. Later that night it hit me and I fired off a heated email telling her that I did not appreciate her actions.

I learned a very clear lesson that day. I can email, write, maybe even call (never tried it) her between sessions. However, I cannot dump stuff in her lap and not expect her to try and address it. We never talked directly about that session or if she deliberately/accidentally disregarded my request. We probably should have, but I'm pretty sure her actions were deliberate, but not meant to hurt or punish me for disclosing that way.

As I reflect on this situation now. I think she could have been a bit more gentle in her handling of the situation. But she wouldn't have been a good therapist if she had done what I asked. She couldn't just pretended that the letter hadn't been sent and not try and deal with the contents in an open and direct way. Obviously, part of me WANTED that information out on the table and discussed. It just took me another six months to actually make it a two-way conversation.

My long-winded point is whatever you disclosed or talked about in that 20 minutes, is likely something at least some part of you wants to address. One 20-min phone exchange probably doesn't "address" it. Its out there, you've broken the ice, you will handle the rest of it.
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Thanks for this!
Sannah, sittingatwatersedge