I didn't want to say anything because I've been doing fairly well for the past 6 months or so.

But I feel like I've been de-stabalizing for the past 2 weeks.

I keep thinking of my wrist....and remembering the blood from last time....and imagining watching my blood run out again.

I've been bothered with "fantasies" again, too. Fantasies that I could act upon. I haven't had this happen in months. My mind has been pretty quiet.

I have gone through, and continue to go through, so much stress right now. It is affecting me in a manner that is not safe.

I am not asking for anything with this message. I just needed to release the fact outside of myself that my mind has been malfunctioning again.

As you know, I will take care of this myself. But sometimes I wonder if I'll open my eyes and see that I've already slit my wrist.

Like I said, I'm just releasing my thoughts. It's good to share. And it was time for me to let you know that I've been slipping a bit lately. Darn!

Okay, so back to reading a book. Thanks for listening. I'm glad it's not a secret anymore.

Hugs,
Sandy